why wait?

Why wait to
feel, to express, to experience?

Why wait to
tell the ones you love
of all the beautiful thoughts
you have of them?

Why wait to
follow the pull of your heart-
the inescapable path to truth?

Why wait to
see, to go, to explore?

Why wait to live?

From where I stand,
if I stretch my neck
and flex my tippy toes,

I can see hope
far in the distance-
a light, a faint pinkish-rose.

But the path that I travel
is far from easy-
the winds, they ebb and flow

to blow me off course
but I will trek along
on this road that I have chose.

nothing seems permanent 

except maybe

my fascination

with impermanence

I saw the light at the end of the tunnel today.

The brilliant, glorious light that reminded me that hope has not been depleted, nor will it ever be depleted; there is indeed beauty that awaits me at the end of the path I am traveling.

The light that told me that I am not alone, nor have I ever been alone, nor will I ever travel one step without this light guiding me. Though not always seen, the light is always present - even when my eyes are too cloudy to register its reassuring brightness.

And when glancing upon this light I came to the realization that the same light that guides and protects also resides in my heart, showering me with a certain importance, a meaning that can only be fulfilled by me. And indeed the way to fulfill this significance is to keep trekking along the path, to keep following the light no matter where it may lead.

And the source of this light, this eternally burning, eternally guiding flame will never escape from me, and I never from it -

For I live in the light, and the light lives in me.



It's a beautifully inescapable love story.

thoughts on God this week

1.)
The only prayer that is sensible to me right now (possibly the most sensible prayer I've ever prayed):
God,
Help me to be the best me that you made me to be,
And help me to love You & others well.

2.)
I'm abandoning religion for something greater -
I'm abandoning religion for a life with God.

A life not defined by doctrines or rules,
A life defined by wholehearted love
For the One who made it all.

Why the hell am I here -
forced to face my existence
with some sensible form of reason,
yet knowing full well
that I will never receive
a definite explanation
as to why my two feet
were unwillingly placed here
on this specified orb floating
in the vast, mysterious universe?

Life is ridiculously perplexing
if you break through
the monotony of everyday life
to think about it -

But it's worth it.
(I hope)

for dad

I am so very me
Because so very much of you
Has shaped
Me to be me

Why has it taken me
So long to see?
You'll always be with me

The waves crash in the deep blue sea;
The wind caresses the tall oak tree

And in them lives you,

So in them lives me